It was Wednesday morning, just two weeks ago …

While I was not necessarily having a bad day, I was having an “off” morning.  My heart was feeling a bit heavy, perhaps.  I had a lot of worry on my mind.  And, I was simply feeling tired.  In a funk – if you will.  Both emotionally and physically, I just wasn’t feeling myself.  I could feel that my eyes were showing a dulled-out version of my spirit.  And, quite honestly, my smile was feeling a bit forced and not completely genuine.  This is certainly not my favorite way to begin any day, especially since I work so closely with other people.  In fact, it’s an unsettling way to begin my day.  Mostly because, I’m aware that my vibe affects quite a few people throughout any given day.  People come to visit me at work, in efforts to feel better about themselves.  To have a positive escape in their lives.  To look and feel beautiful – Inside and out. This is not a responsibility that I take lightly.  I take great pride in my ability to touch people’s lives in such a profound way.  To be their light, so to speak.  My mood can drastically determine the energy I attract and the energy I create for others.  That day, however, no matter how hard I tried to change my demeanor – it simply didn’t work.  Sometimes, the “weight of the world”, our worries, our concerns, our guilt, our regrets …. They simply get the best of us.  Sometimes, the “public face” switch is just broken.  Sometimes, we are just broken.  Sometimes, we just find ourselves questioning whether or not, despite our best efforts, we are even making a difference.  Sometimes, we simply question the direction life is taking us …. Are we on our divine path to fulfill our journey?  Are we fully living to our potential and life’s purpose?  Following our passion in a positive and authentic manner?  Sometimes, the thoughts feel profound and inspiring.  And, other times – the thoughts are just the excessive noise of our egos attempting to knock us off-course.  Sometimes, the thoughts just make us feel lost.  Unworthy.  And, often times, unappreciated.  As many “givers” know, sometimes our tank simply runs empty and we feel as though we have nothing left to give.  We become depleted.  This, was how I was feeling that particular Wednesday morning.

So, as any responsible service provider would do – I resorted to giving myself a very stern pep-talk as I was walking into work.  It went something like this …

“Girllll … you need to shake off this funk!!! Right now!  Put a smile on your face … A. Genuine. Smile! Not a fake smile.  I genuine smile!  Get in there, give it everything you’ve got left to give and be grateful for everyone that comes to visit you today. Show your appreciation and make everyone feel as beautiful as you possibly can today!  They CHOOSE you.  What an honor.  Okay – Let’s do this!  Let’s make a difference in someone’s life today!”

As I was applying color to my first guest of the morning, I saw one of my other guests walking toward the salon.  She clearly was coming in for her appointment, as she had her water bottle, and a few other items that she often brings, in tow.  For a split second, I panicked under the assumption that I messed up her appointment or something.  When she walked in, clearly, I wanted to make her feel welcome, however, I’m sure that I had a look of confusion on my face.  It was a few moments past 10:00am and she hurried in – apologizing for being late.  Oh no.  She had definitely arrived for an appointment in which she was not scheduled for.  My heart sank a bit and notified her that I didn’t have her scheduled today, however, she IS scheduled for tomorrow morning.  Turns out, she thought it WAS Thursday and we all joked about the fact that she wasn’t late at ALL – In fact, she was VERY early!  All was well.  Great.  I love outcomes such as these!  I told her that while she was here, I would at least come steal a hug.  After I hugged her, I could see some reservation in her eyes.  She turned toward the door to leave.  I began walking back over to my current guest to complete applying her color.  She hesitated toward the door, turned around and mentioned that she wanted to give me something first before she left.  She walked over to me, encouraged me to continue working and began to explain her beautiful “Angel in My Life” pin that she was wearing.  Within her pin, there was a smaller angel pin intertwined.  She detached the smaller pin from hers and offered me the smaller angel pin as she thanked me for being an Angel in Her Life.  Of course, she brought tears to my eyes explaining why she chose me to receive her lovely pin.

It was in THIS moment that my intentions were validated.  It was in THIS moment that I realized that my life, is indeed, on purposeful path.  She had no idea of how much I was struggling that morning.  How heavy my heart was feeling less than an hour prior to her walking in our door.  She had no idea how noisy my thoughts had become.  She had no idea how dull my spirit was feeling earlier that morning ….

A coincidence??  I doubt it.  I choose to believe it was divine timing.  A divine message.  From Sue, an Angel in My Life. To whom, I am deeply grateful.